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goddddddddddddddd i feel like shit now this whole thing fucking sucks

i want to know what started it and if it will EVER go away. i feel guilty for being like this, my mom must be so sick of me stressing about it all the time. i'd feel bad for my dad too but he doesn't seem to understand how bad it is. it's probably better this way.

i want to tell somebody so bad but i can't do it

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