i'm way too upset to sleep EVER AGAIN my mind is just racing i did something stupid i went online and looked at the calories for what i had for dinner at tgi friday's (yay mother's day celebrations uum fuck) and i thought i was going to PASS OUT and i didn't even look up the dessert
i'm back to losing sleep over this kind of stuff what is going to happen to me i don't really want to get better right now
always comparing i hate this, the thoughts are saying "she wouldn't eat like that you better make up for it tomorrow"
i am having a shitty week right now and it's all because of food what a joke
something i regret:
look my little gold bracelet says the word hope on it i'm not going to lie i did that on purpose
but yeah the damage was done around christmas when i had just been admitted to mirasol and things were going not so hot for me, i know what people think now when they see my wrist and i can't decide whether i'm more amused by their horror or embarrassed
ALSO FUCK WHOEVER SENT THIS IN
- 161 i've never stopped believing
- 160 "you used to be that skinny, but not anymore"
- 159 demons
- 158 if i am lost for a day try to find me
- 157 nice day for a walk in the dark
- 156 non-regrets
- 155 i want to know what you think
- 154 just a question
- 153 no one's home
- 152 too blind to see tomorrow, too broke to beg or...
- 151 someday you'll be fine, yes i'll be just fine
- 150 terrible terrible terrible
- 149 'cause i want to pick peaches off a cherry tre...
- 148 i'm sorry
- 147 :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(
- 146 i wish i had a single thought the least bit le...
- 145 i am on my own but it's nice to see you came a...
- 144 wasting words on lowercases and capitals
- 143 people love and they hate and i guess it's jus...
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