122 and i can't sleep, or at least i'm still awake

i can't sleep. i have a busy day coming up and i'm stressed. the only ways i know how to deal with stress are self-destructive

i feel disgusting right now i JUST want my sleep meds to work tonight, sleep is one of favorite forms of relief

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