121 life is more than what i have accomplished

there are only a couple of things i feel like i'm missing right now, i hope i don't float around waiting for them forever

having hope makes life so scary. it's weird, the more good you have in life the more you have to lose. if you have nothing, you have everything to gain and nothing to lose. which do you think is better?

hey i don't want anyone to think i'm perfect anymore. i'm telling you flat out, i'm not as great and confident as i pretend to be sometimes. i get nervous and shy and shaky and feel awkward, i blush easily. there are days when i look in the mirror and wonder why i can't look like someone else. i have issues (obviously) and it still takes almost everything i've got to accept myself. i worry a lot about things that really don't matter.

i have good qualities, everyone does. i like to think i'm caring and empathetic and fun to be around, but that doesn't mean there aren't times when i don't give a shit about anything and i'd rather sleep all day.

i'm coming to terms with being imperfect and quirky and odd, and i really want to like myself.

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