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it's been almost three months since i left home,






i can't believe how much i've changed. i would try to explain it but it's this strange and foreign sensation and i'm afraid the only way to know it is to feel it. i feel bad for anyone who never has felt it, i'd like to share it with the entire world.

i'm utterly terrified that i'll wake up tomorrow morning and this will all have been a dream

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