so i chickened out, didn't go to thanksgiving dinner with my family, i figured this would happen. i just can't be around all that food and all those people and all the pressure.
whether i eat or don't eat, i lose, that's just the way this eating disorder plays the game
this morning i got really scared because my heart was pounding so hard and so fast then it slowed down and i could barely feel it, my mom almost took me to the ER i was pale and shaking, on the verge of blacking out
i'd like to black out permanently right now :S
um my mom and i are in the process of writing a story it's kind of exciting actually. i love writing fiction and she does too, she's a great writer and she's so excited about this, it's adorable lol seriously. i love my mom. my dad's been really great lately too, they're both being way supportive about everything.
ok *most miserable thing about today* my sister-in-law and her sister (who's a year older than me) dragggggged me n my mom out to the movies to see twilight. there are some things you cannot unsee.............
sorry i hate plots that involve lust/infatuation being portrayed as deep everlasting love WHAT DO I KNOW
- ► 2009 (112)