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whewwww i'm wired! no seriously i have so much energy right now. i always get like this the night before a show especially considering this is the arizona season finale ((( aka a big deal if you're a horse geek like myself )))

sux because i have to get there at 7am which means leaving at 6:30am which means getting up at like 6 and forcing myself to eat something that early will be no easy feat. umm i just had a bowl of oatmeal which...... well i would rather have been forced to sit and watch a marathon of "paris hilton's my new bff" that's saying something!

sorry i'll try and stop complaining i'm waiting for my sleep meds to kick in *ho hum*

sleep will not come easily tonight! hmm i've been listening to brand new for like...... 5 hours okay night

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