196 you're a bird on a wire

i've had a headache for days, it's sitting right behind my eyes, and i don't know what we're doing

or if it's worth all this ache and sick twists in my stomach and the staying up late and waking up early. neglecting the things i need to do and telling you no, no, but not being able to convince you. there are parts of myself i am not willing to lose and there are other things that need to come first and that's just that.